God's Will Is Better Than My Plan Any Day

I should be packing, but just had to share with you how God spoke to me four times this past Sunday.

If you have been reading here at For Journey's Sake for very long, you know of my health issues and how I have been trying to correct some problems especially since September 2012.  If you would like to read more, you can click on the link above.

I had an ultrasound in the Spring of this year and discovered I have 6 cysts: one on my right ovary, two on my left ovary, and three on my uterus.  I have been taking herbal supplements and have changed the way I eat to try and correct this problem.  If history repeats itself for me then I would eventually be rushed into the hospital for emergency surgery for gigantuous cysts!

They don't stop growing.  They don't burst.  They are like the Energizer Bunny; they keep going and going...

I have not had another ultrasound since Spring, but by reading my symptoms I can tell that they are...growing...again!

I called my midwife in despair Sunday and she was a God-send.  The Lord used her to speak His Word into my life and I was bawling right there in the health food store.

In a nutshell, she told me that I needed to get somewhere and listen to the voice of God.  I needed to figure out what He wanted for me.  She went on to say that sometimes what God wants for us is not necessarily what we want, but He does know best.   He wants us to lay our will down and accept His perfect will.

She gave me an awesome word picture to go with what she was saying.  It went like this:

I have a beautiful, expensive horse that I train and show.  If I did not take the time to train him, what would he be worth?  Not much.  A beautiful horse to look at, but that is it.  I don't want to be like that to my Heavenly Father; looking good on the outside, but not submitting to His will on the inside.  What would I be worth?  Not much to Him or to others.

I also have a Bay mare that rides beautifully...as long as we are riding with the other horses.  When I try to ride her alone, she won't listen to a thing I have to say.  She only rides well when she listens to the other horse.  I don't want to be like this to my Heavenly Father either;  never listening to the One in charge, and listening to all of the other voices, but not His.

My midwife said it much better since she was getting it directly from the Lord and I wish I could put it that good here.  She knows that the last thing I want is a hysterectomy or another surgery.  It was a beautiful conversation, but somewhat sad for me.  My heart was heavy as I went back to the car because I felt the Lord might be preparing me for the very thing I DO NOT want.

I turned on the radio begging God to speak to me.  The song that was playing was "Stronger" by Mandisa.  I desperately wanted good news.  I knew God was with me and cared for me.  This pain could not last forever.  I just needed to feel His presence and find His will in all of this.  He began holding me as I listened to Him tell me that this was going to make me stronger...somehow!

I looked down at my Bible and thought I would read my favorite verse: Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord
“plans to prosper you and not to harm you, 
plans to give you hope and a future.  

I pondered that.  All the while praying for God to speak to me.  I decided to read Jeremiah chapter 30 since it had been awhile since I had.

These verses jumped off the page at me.  I wept as I felt the impact.

v 12 For thus saith the Lord, Thy bruise is incurable, and thy wound is grievous.

v 13 There is none to plead thy cause, that thou mayest be bound up: thou hast no healing medicines.

Thy bruise is incurable First of all, there is no cure for ovarian cysts that I know of.  Medically the alternatives are a hysterectomy (which they have wanted me to have since I was 27) or birth control pills.  The pill is just a band-aid, but it won't even work for me because I first started getting cysts when I was taking the pill!

Thy wound is grievous.  It is terrible, beyond healing, severe as other translations would say it.  Yep!  It is all of those things and more.

There is none to plead thy cause.  I don't have a doctor advising me, counseling me.   I did what they said for years with no success.  I am alone in this.

Thou hast no healing medicines.  This was the biggie!  There is no where else I can turn.  To my knowledge, there is no cure, no medicine, no herb that can heal my illness.

Ok.  You have my attention now, Lord!

v 17 For I will restore health unto thee, 
and I will heal thee of thy wounds, saith the Lord;

Wow!  I re-read it several times and tried to go on.  This was God speaking to me!  I am not here to debate the actual translation of these verses and whether they really mean this or that.  God was using His Word to speak to me.  Directly. 

v 19 And out of them shall proceed thanksgiving and the voice of them that make merry: and I will multiply them, and they shall not be few; I will also glorify them, and they shall not be small.  Does this mean a promise of more children?  I don't know, but it is a happy thought for me!!!

v 20 Their children also shall be as aforetime, and their congregation shall be established before me, and I will punish all that oppress them.

v 22 And ye shall be my people, and I will be your God. 

Wow!  Ok, Lord.  I will stand on this as my promise from You!!!

If all of that wasn't good enough, a woman of God spoke a prophecy over me at church that night.  She said that the thing I have been praying for for so long was going to be fulfilled!

So through my midwife, a beautiful song, His Word, and a saint of His at church, He let me know, "Hey, I got this one!  I am going to heal you!  Just trust Me."

Have you ever had God give you specific promises 
in a time of trial?
What did you do?


Charlotte Moore said...

One thing for sure.HE can do above and beyond anything we could think or ask. HE is the HEALER. HE can HEAL through many avenues. It is all in HIS time.


Heather said...

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Rashel said...

I love it when God speaks to me like that. I pray His healing comes soon for you.

Niki French said...

Me, too., Rashel! It is scary, yet exciting! Thanks for the prayers!

Charlotte, trusting in Him and His timing is the hardest part - isn't it? We want to get in there and try to fix it ourselves sometimes. Thank you for stopping by and encouraging me, too.

Sherry said...

Stopping by from www.intentionallyyours.org by way of Encourage One Another Link up! Our plans and thoughts are so small, aren't they? Thank you so much for sharing!

Joanna said...

I sat in my recliner and almost cried. I love when God uses His Word to speak to us like this.

Treadle Hummings said...

Love you Niki. Beautiful masterpiece you are in His hands, He with great care and precision strokes the canvas, your life. Praying for peace as you relax on His easel. Your testimony is a blessing to me. Love Rhonda

Niki French said...

A big hug and "thank you" to each of you who have encouraged me today! I love hearing from you and I appreciate your kind words. I am looking forward to the day I can share the post of my complete healing!