My Struggles with Fibromyalgia

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Definition of Fibromyalgia by Mayo Clinic:  Fibromyalgia is a disorder characterized by widespread musculoskeletal pain accompanied by fatigue, sleep, memory and mood issues. Researchers believe that Fibromyalgia amplifies painful sensations by affecting the way your brain processes pain signals.  

Approximately eleven years ago I was diagnosed as having Fibromyalgia.  It was a dark time in my life.  My husband had recently hurt his back and had been out of work for a whole year.  My last pregnancy had been an extremely difficult one resulting in bed rest for the last three months.  I had a 4 year old and a 2 year old plus a husband who could not be independent because of his injury.  The church we were attending was run by a pastor who had been accused by the Assemblies of God as being a dictator.  (I don't have to give you any more details to know that was not a pretty situation.)  We were living in a 30 ft motor home (5 of us at the time).  These experiences plus several more I will not list caused a significant strain on my marriage, and frankly, I was depressed.

My first symptoms were that my hip hurt so much I limped when I walked.  This was awkward for a woman of my age (late twenties).  Then my right hand would hurt when I would peel potatoes, etc.  After  enduring this for quite some time, we decided it would be best for me to see a doctor.   

After an x-ray of my hip, the doctor concluded that there was nothing wrong with it or my hand and knees.  I had Fibromyalgia.  I asked her to explain what this meant and this is what she offered:

Fibromyalgia is the term we give for patients who are experiencing unexplained pain.   The research concludes that the brain sends messages to the body that it is in pain.  The pain signals the brain to be depressed because of the pain.  Researchers are unsure which one actually occurs first: the depression or the pain.  Reminds me of the chicken and the egg argument.  LOL

Her prescription: anti-depressants.

I went home feeling worse than I had before I went to see the doctor.

My husband asked me to not take the anti-depressants.  

I didn't.  

I delved into God's Word and prayed harder and harder.

Result:  pain and symptoms departed...for a time.

Since then, I have had more "appearances" of Fibromyalgia.  Each time my hip would begin to hurt or other joints in my body, I would take a hard look at myself and my surroundings.  Was I truly trusting God like I say I do?  Each time, I would have to say I was not.  This forced me to cry out to God more and lean less on my own understanding (Prov. 3:5-6).

Result: pain and symptoms departed...for a time.

If you have been reading this blog recently, you know we have been going through a very difficult time in our lives for more than a year.  Guess what is haunting me?  

Joint pain.  

Depression.  

Fibromyalgia.  

This time it is relentless.  

Long-lasting.  

Frustrating.

It wakes me up at night.  

It lingers when I walk, cross my legs, or kneel.  

Is the doctor's research and previous diagnosis correct?  Not sure.

Are pain and depression linked together?  Yes.

Is the answer anti-depressants?  Not for me.

God is my healer.   Prayer is my anti-depressant.  God's Word is my strength.

I seek to rid my body of pain and depression the best way I know how.  This post is in no way mocking those who have been diagnosed with Fibromyalia, nor does it suggest you have to choose the options I have chosen.  The pain is real and I empathize with those who experience it.

Blessings as you find ways to overcome the pain in your life!  God's Word is filled with many of His promises.  It is a privilege to read it and cling to them.
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Update:  I have begun taking Calcium, Magnesium, Vitamin D, and Potassium and am having good results.  My pain has lessened considerably after 5 months!  Praise the Lord!

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